Let go. Just jump in. It's so amazing here.

A lot has been happening in the relationship department. Or lack of a relationship department. Or the I-think-we're-in-a-relationship-but-I-guess-we're-really-not department.

/Facepalm

Like...I am so incredibly confused. I feel like I am psyching myself out. I feel so adamant about one thing, and then blasé about the same thing the very next day. I don't get it.

I. Just. Don't. Get. It.

Clean-up on aisle 12!

Again. It's a mess. Again. Ugh. It's mind vs. emotion here, and not only am I unsure who's winning - I'm unsure of who I want to root for.

I don't know. Happiness is what's important. However, that involves much more than we care to actually admit. Much, much more...

Why is it that I feel so strongly about something, like love for instance, like it's the only thing that matters, and yet when it finally comes time to express those emotions, I freeze up? Am I just a blubbering imbecile? Or am I scared? Worried? Uncertain, confused?

I wish I knew; I need to fix this.

I love this man. I love being with him. But not at the expense of my sanity.

Or did my sanity blow out the window the day I drove down to Murfreesboro, TN four years ago?

Four years ago. Wow. And I've accomplished almost nothing.

When does my adventure begin? I'm ready for a new chapter!